Lately, I've been lacking in finding some inner peace.  I have a total of 9 days off from work but I feel like my mind isn't at ease.  I have no motivation to do anything.  I don't have the motivation to study for the GREs, no energy to work on grad school applications, no energy to hang out with friends.  I just feel so incomplete.  Sometimes, I just feel like dropping everything and going to somewhere, anywhere.  But that's the thing,  I just don't know where to run to.

I think what I need to do is to enrich my spiritual life with God.  I have been so wrapped up with work that I feel like I've been falling farther and farther away from Him.  I hate this.  I hate that I sit in church, zone out, and miss an opportunity to be spiritually enriched.  How do I reach out to Him?  I want to feel complete again.

Usually, fishing helps clear my mind but it didn't.
Despite the smile I have on my face below, I often looked out to the ocean and questioned what the next step was for me.  I kept asking myself: Am I just going to continue living to work? When am I going to feel like I'm living?

I guess this is how it feels to be stuck in a rut.


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